I officially made it through the semester! I’m home, which is really nice.
Of course, one of the first things I did when I got home was try a new medication. I was switching out my Celexa for Cymbalta, a medication which sometimes helps with chronic pain. Due to hearing some negative reviews, I was really worried. That, and I knew from experience that withdrawal from antidepressants is hell.
Despite knowing that I wasn’t going to feel too great, I took the Cymbalta. If it helps my pain, it’s worth trying, right?
The first day, I felt dizzy, and I felt irritated at every little thing. I knew the moodiness was from Cymbalta, though.
The second day, I still felt dizzy and nauseous, and got out of the shower to find that one side of my face was bright red. I repeatedly texted and called my mom, trying to convince myself that my throat wasn’t going to close up.
“I think I have a rash on my face? I’d know if it was going to mess with my breathing or something, right?”
After being reassured that it was fine, but that I was allergic, and shouldn’t take the medicine again.
I’m back on Celexa now, which means I can walk without being super dizzy and don’t have to worry about my mood. Antidepressants are a weird thing.
Now comes the question of what next? I don’t really know. As far as medications, I’ve tried everything (as far as I know) other than opioids, and I have some concerns about those. I know opioids are effective for some people, but I also know that there’s no cure for chronic pain. (I try not to dwell on that, because it sucks.) I’m going to keep searching for answers and remedies, medicinal or non-medicinal; massage therapy is next on the list of things to try, which sounds lovely to me.
Since I was woken up at 4:45am by pain, I’m hoping I can sleep in a bit tomorrow. The rest of break will probably fly by, but I’m trying to enjoy it while I can. Another semester down, just one more to go!
I hope everyone has a restful holiday season!